So what am I doing here?!

Dear Polylove,

Consider this my introduction post.  This little blurb is the rundown of my life and how I arrived at this point.

Where to start...

Well, on here I will go by Lovie.  I am a 25 year old bisexual woman.  I am married to a man, I will call him Hubby (original, I know).  

I have known that I was bisexual from a very young age.  Very young.  I remember wanting to kiss girls far more often than I wanted to kiss boys.  I successfully suppressed those urges for years until college when I was free to be the person that I really was.  A dear woman opened my eyes to the concept of bisexuality and that was the end for me.  Since then, I have had a woman lover and am much more confident in myself as a bi woman.  

I married Hubby in 2005.  We had a child in 2007.  We have always discussed opening our marriage in a polyamorous sense.  Adding people into our already love-filled loves is appealing to us on many levels.  Naturally we are a little nervous of this change because this time, we will be opening our bed and our marriage to another man.  Why, you ask?  Because we are both aware of the fact that it is increasingly difficult to get what we need from one person.  And while (due to my bi status) it would be nice to add a woman into our lives, I think that we are going to start with this.  In effort to be completely honest on this blog, I find that it is so amazing to be with a woman in a sexual sense, but I find it more difficult to keep long-term relationships going with women.  Maybe it is because I tend to want to be the alpha female and it is hard to let that go.  Who knows...that is the purpose of this blog.  To get all these feelings out there in the world so that I can better understand my growing and changing sexuality.  

So for now, Hubby and Lovie are looking for another man to bring into our relationship.  We have an account at a couple of the poly websites dedicated to matchmaking and are new members of a poly support group.  We have been talking (emailing and phone) with a man located a couple of hours from us.  He seems very sweet and is what we are looking for on several levels.  We are hoping that things continue from here... I shall call this man AL.  Not his real name obviously.  

I imagine that the purpose of this blog with morph over time.  I hope to one day provide lots of experiences and advice to people just starting out in their own polyamory journeys.  But for now, this is just a place for me to talk about my feelings and all things poly.  

Lovie